Breaking Up – Recovery Is Possible!
By Nina Atwood
“I refuse to let what happened to me make me bitter. I still completely believe in love and I’m open to anything that will happen to me.” – Nicole Kidman on breaking up
Many years ago when my ex-husband left, I initially thought that this was the end of any hope for love in my life. It took me months to wade through the grief process – shock, denial, anger, deep grief, and later, a measure of acceptance. The divorce shook my mind, heard, and body to the foundation.
One day, I woke up feeling just a tiny bit better, and on that day I experienced several powerful insights. Like Nicole, I saw that while I would never have control over the behavior and choices of any man in my life, I had complete control over how I responded. I saw that bitterness, loss of hope, and a closed heart were in my domain of control. I realized that the ability to love and be loved, to trust and have an open heart, are precious assets of mine. With blinding clarity, I saw that to surrender these assets because of any other person’s behavior would be an enormous loss, not to that person, but to me and to the quality of my life. In that moment, I made a solid commitment to myself that I would never surrender my faith in love or my ability to love and be loved because of a break up, divorce, or any other negative life event.
This moment of clarity and insight did not mark the end of my recovery period – to the contrary! I often struggled to remember my own insights; I struggled with anger and bitterness, with grief and loss, and with feelings of hopelessness at times. But I never completely lost sight because while I was feeling so clear I wrote down my thoughts, including my “recovery list” of things to look for in the future that would tell me I was over this divorce. When I needed the message again, I pulled out that piece of paper and remembered my commitment, and this helped me continue moving forward.
If you are suffering from a divorce or break-up, I hope for your full and complete recovery from the broken heart of today. Know that it is possible to recover, and it is possible – in fact it is your birthright – to love and be loved again. The next time around, you will be wiser and you will make better choices, especially if you arm yourself with more knowledge, awareness, and insight.
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2 Comments
1. Jackie | May 22nd, 2008 at 9:13 am
Recovery is possible. I am getting over a break-up, and I, too, did now want to lose my faith in love. I want to move on and be in a loving relationship. It’s hard going through the pain which manifest my feelings, thoughts, and faith. I’m over the hump now, learned my lessons, and looking forward to the next relationship. Thank you.
2. john | May 31st, 2008 at 2:33 am
My partner of 19 years left me and our daughter and took our son to CO in January. I have felt every emotion possible and still believe in love more than ever. For me it has come from friends, family, and even strangers that hear my story. Their will be another special someone to share my life with but i believe in attraction rather than promotion so in God’s time. Through all of this i have prayed sincerely for my ex to have all the joy and happiness life has to offer and have felt more grace and mercy than any man has a right to. i remain forever grateful for all of the experiences i have had and am having now ( even the painful ones ). thanks.